Everyday I wake up, I feel so weak

Sometimes, I feel like this world will never listen to me

No one else would ever understand the pain in my heart

The thoughts that are forever jailed in my head

Radiating all throughout my body

Everyday I wake up, I feel so weak

I just want that sleep will eat me forever

I want to wake up no more

I am scared and petrified

Thinking that this thing I am holding right now

Would eventually kill me

Because the only thing that makes me happy

Is through hurting myself

People will never care

If I either live or die

Because no one cared

And no one ever will

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